Over the last few years I have been struggling with this question.
“Who am I without my work?”
As I am right now it is an extremely hard question to answer, because for the most part all I have in my life is my work.
I keep trying to write something that avoids mentioning work and it turns into complete garbage.
Til next week.
There is a big pattern forming so far this year. with hindsight it has been here for a very long time and more so since mum died.
90% of my non work time is spent asleep and when I am awake my mood is so blah.
Everyday is just rinse and repeat.
After a recent conversation with a coworker I found myself back to at a question that I formed when I listened to episode 29 of Calm Living Blue Print.
Do I know how to live ? I know how to survive but do I truly now how to just live ?
What activities/keywords do I think of when I think about survival ?
What activities/keywords do I think of when I think about living ?
I think the quote from Candice in Episode 29 is great
It‟s a funny thing… growing up no one teaches you how to do that – to just live.
Each morning we wake up caught between the person we once were and the person we are becoming, between the life you once lived and the one you are creating.
And you‟re kind of left to wonder if it‟s possible to ever find some peace in that space between yesterday and tomorrow.
To extend on Candice’s quote, I believe my default state is survival because it is all I have known for so long and that I don’t think I give myself permission to live.
Til next time
It’s time to plan my annual trip down south for my Birthday.
Destination: Yallingup Forrest Resort (I got a great deal at $100 per night).
Check in: 25/06/2017
Check out: 01/07/2017
I had a very relaxing time last year and can’t wait to go back.
Rough plan for my trip can be viewed here.
My previous post got me thinking about relationships & learned behaviour.
After my parents divorce all I saw was my mum alone and because she was busy with three other kids that I didn’t get my emotional needs met.
In later years when I should be starting to think about relationships I only ever became interested in unavailable people and ultimately growing to rejected the idea ever having a relationship.
Interesting thoughts for a Saturday morning.